went to highlight n cut my hair but like no difference actually. haha. Nobody notices it in fact. The guy who did my hair quite shuai... haha... and he gave mi his number cos he want mi to intro more pple to his shop.

Met up with Raymond after his interview on Monday at Chinatown n i told him i highlighted my hair. He asked whether i used highlighter is it? haha. Found it quite funny. And so, i told him everything bout mi n Kevin n he said he got a gut feeling that everything will turn out fine. And a few moments later, he contact mi again. And once again, we quarrelled. He said i can blame the whole world, why not blame myself? I told him that i have changed a lot cos of him already and asked him why he cannot change oso? i said " u noe i dun like u to smoke so much. How come u cannot change n u still purposely smoke in front of mi whenever u get pissed?" And since then, he has yet to reply. Maybe i'm really childish. Raymond said it is not easy for a person to quit smoking. What's more, Kevin has start to smoke since young n almost all his close frenz smoke. So, maybe its really mean to juz use smoking as an excuse to defend myself. But i dun want to care anymore. Its beyond salvagation. Pple might feel i'm so weird n void of feelings that i dun even feel sad now. Its cos i have cried so much cos of him in the past already...

Went for the HP interview on Monday... but still no news frm them... so sad : (

well... met up with Kennedy last nite for supper cos he happened to come to Tanjong Pagar. And so, i asked him to come to my hse downstairs there to eat. But ended up, i almost walked to Chinatown to meet him cos he lost his way! goodness. haha. But, in the end, we still went to my hse there to eat... He's still the same n everyting juz that he is soooooo into clubbing now...
After that, went home n chatted with Jaymie for one hr plus toking abt fishcake n starhub pple. haha. told her lots of stuff. we came out with a funny conclusion that my love life with him is like a rocket, gng thru the whole process so quickly. together, pak tor then break in juz 6 mths! But, her love life is slow n steady , like tortoise crawling, still in the initial stage while i already completed everyting liao although i noe him shorter than she noes fish. haha. damn funny!
I finally plucked up enough courage to call him to clarify tings as i do not want it to hang in the air like that. So, i asked him wad r we now n he said as normal lor. Then i said but the way we treating each other is definately not like normal anymore. so i said:" juz forget it lah, dun be together anymore since this is wad u want also." and he said " ok, shi ni bi wo de" Sounds familiar huh? so i said dun copy mi. haha. But i'm glad that we settled everyting peacefully n become frenz. Hanging in the air is definately not a gd feeling. The past few days was like so damn terrible for mi.
Juz came back shopping frm toa payoh... there sooooo many shops sia... legs veri suan now...

Cheryl!! U juz got to Wake up!!
Stop waiting for his call or sms or wadsoever cos u knoe he won't even bother.
And stop thinking of calling him or contacting him anymore.
Its over and that's it.
Once everyting is over, u all can no longer be frenz.
Isn't this wad u both want in the first place??
So stop putting yourself in sorrow all the time anymore!!
Dun cry bcos of him anymore!!
Concentrate on ur studies and buck up!!
Go Go Jia You !! ( sounds familiar huh? )

Its finally over. Mi n him.
okay. I'm sorry that its mi and its this kind of thing that cause us to quarrel time n again. But sorry, I can't give in this time and that's it. Its not only about this incident . Many tings had happened. My frenz, ur frenz, my family, ur family, tings like whenever i pissed u off when i could not give u wad u want, u make mi even more pissed by starting to smoke. Maybe its even a coincidential ting that we watched " The Break Up " together. Ha
I'm sad but not that sad. I am feeling empty. That's all. I din want this to happen yet i want it to happen at the same time. U said that it was a mistake. Ya. It was a mistake right frm the start. But wadever it is, thanks for everyting in the past. I have learnt a lot n all the best.

Long time since i last blogged... since this is supposed to be somewhat like a diary, i shall write down wadever that had happened since the last time i wrote...After the prevoius entry ( National Day), i met up with those starhub pple for KTV! It was the'highest' KTV i had ever been to with them. haha. Although we sing n scream till veri nan ting, i found it veri veri fun. It could also be a gd way to forget all ur troubles. hehe. Oh. and that nite, i was supposed to meet up with him but i didn't even feel like meeting him at all. I rather meet up with those starhub peeps. Come to tink of it, i din meet him for 2 mths le n i dun feel such a great deal. Seriously jia liat lah cos in the past, nv meet for one week oso buay tahan. haha.On Saturday, we met up again at Esplanade to watch fireworks. I LOVE to watch fireworks!! So beautiful sia... After that, went back to east coast. back to where i came frm. haha. n sat by the beach chit chat...The next day, i met him at orchard and we go eat crystal jade, watch the movie CLICK. Hilarious, Meaningful, NICE movie... After sending mi home, i thot abt many stuff. Raymond told mi before to follow my heart. To mi, following my heart is juz to be with someone u love. But now, as a r/s progresses, following ur heart is not the ting to do. U have to tink bout the future. I dun see any future with him at all. cos i cannot accept his backgrd n his way of doing tings. And of course, i could not stand him smoking n smoking non stop.On Tuesday, went queensway to meet Sharon n ry then ended up quarrelling with ry in front of Sharon. We managed to settle things peacefully in the end at nite. It was then that i realised i willingly chose frenship to r/s...Friday, went out with ry to shopping n i bought this white bag... everytime buy sth will be so happy one... dunno why oso... haha...Many tings happened to the both of us nowadays ... He is in some kind of trouble. he told mi that " sorry if i contact u so little these few days. It is unsafe to be seen with mi. Let u knoe when i have settled everyting."and a few days before, he told mi he n his fren r in hospital. They were being beaten up. Seriously, he needs mi now. But i'm selfish. I chose to give him up at this pt . I told him that " shi ni bi wo de". i feel bad but he did it to mi first so i guess how i feel abt him now is the result of how he treated mi in the past. And he isn't treating mi that well now either.I am selfish . Unlike Jaymie who is willing to stand by fish n helping him although how he had treated her in the past...Last nite. went to Marina Bay to have steamboat . Yummy! So, actually, its juz mi , Daniel n Sharon. Din expect Zhi Xiong to come. I dun want to see him oso. Juz make everyting feel so awkward. We were once so close but now we dun even tok. Throughout the whole outing, i feel so out of place lah. After eating, went Esplanade again cos i din want to go back so early n i din want sharon to go back so early so we went to somewhere near to have Hagen daaz. And then, Daniel send mi hm after that... Took one pic with them ytd... look above...

Today is National Day! hehez...
The weekends was well spent... Spent hrs on fri nite toking to Jaymie on msn abt everyting under the sun... miss u so much gal! On Saturday, i met up with RY at Far East before gng to Esplanade to meet up with the rest of the YJ peeps. I bought so many stuff! Was juz so shiok sia... but muz save money frm now on already although i knoe i won't. haha. Then, we rushed all the way to Esplanade. But, traffic jam all the way n no parking space. And our ultimate aim of meeting Taiwan Mei, Te Hsin, was not fulfilled once again. Second time already! Rush bu dao. haha. But, we were juz in time for the fireworks. BEAUTIFUL! After that, all of us went to Geylang to eat the beef noodles. So Delicious! Yum Yum. Most of our time was spent stucked in the stupid traffic jam though. so pek chek. After that, RY sent us to Bugis MRT station and i went to take bus. But no MRT n bus! jialiat. To my surprise, Daniel appeared. haha. and we took a lift home. And as usual, he started to make fun of my house name. Spottiswoode Park become Spottiswoodis Park. Haha. Then, while giving directions to my hse, JJ told him where exactly to let mi alight. And, memories came back again. Sigh...Suddenly remb the past times where JJ n him used to send mi home...
On Sunday, i Went for my SIM OG9's gathering. Had a full dinner at Manhanttan Fish House at PS before gng to Istana Park to chill out n play games. Was quite fun n funny. One of the games we played is some Polar bear n Guru game and they keep accusing mi of being the Polar bear. I look like bear meh?? hahaha. Toking bout bear hor, i suddenly thot of one person whose name got bear one. Chan Zhixiong. heard frm sharon that jj said he saw zx's gf locking hands with another guy...
On Monday, i kinda waited n waited for his sms cos he said wanted to meet but in the end din meet. Called his HP n he switched it off. So i sms him this : Expected. No call or sms frm u. Dun want to meet also dun need to off ur phone. And he replied few hrs later say his phone totally dead. I din bother to reply him n i can happily say i'm not like in the past anymore. I'm not so much affected by him liao. the next day, he asked mi whether i have eaten already while i was having tuition. I din reply him n guess wad he said? " No reply? nvm. i go home liao." And he called up saying he wants to meet today. HAHA was my reply. i said " dun need le. cos u wont meet one. Later end up playing disappearing act again"...
Planned so many outings with Ry . Hopefully they all come true!! can't wait to meet up with u again!!

School finally started but it sucks cos i have no frenz and was all alone during break times. But i guess i will get used to it sooner or later and i dun really give a damn anymore cos i only spend 3 hrs in sch per day.
Its been 4 days since i last left starhub. Was really veri veri grateful for everything. The gifts n stuff. And i really didn't knoe that i will miss all of them so much. Time passes so quickly and they have come into my almost daily lives for one year already. Gone thru so much with the gal beside mi be it relationship or working related problems n all sorts of rubbish n crazy stupid jokes we have ever cracked.
Last nite, i met up with those starhub peeps for our usual stuff of KTV! It was quite fun actually. When i reached home, msg jaymie as instructed by Subaru. haha. After that, went to shower n suddenly felt super sad. Went to sleep but instead of sleeping, i started to tear. i replied jaymie's sms n told her abt it and when i saw her reply, i felt veri encouraged n touched. I teared not only because of how pathetic i find myself in this r/s, every other thing comes in as well. I teared cos i also felt veri happy for Jaymie when i see how strong she is when handling her own r/s, how frenz are able to be there for each other etc. This morning, on the way to sch, i teared again on the bus. The guy beside mi muz be thinking i'm crazy. Dunno wad's wrong with mi for these 2 days. Getting emotional so easily. Haha.
On a happier note, i finally received my tuition pay! veri little but i still veri happy!! hehe...